My Last Manifesto To You

MY LAST MANIFESTO TO YOU - 7.21.2003

You\'ll always be there.
That voice in the back of my head, telling me
To fuck \'em all and do my thing
That one voice that made me smile
Even when I felt the world was falling

This is indescribable
Sitting here writing a letter to you
Confessions of imaginary rollercoaster rides
It was such a rollercoaster ride
Watching our similarities play although
You always stepped away somehow

You\'ll always be here.
That rockstar romance that every girl wants
To call her own and call her first
And I know people change but strangely
It feels like it\'s me that\'s devolved in mentality

This is indescribable
Sitting here having a converstation with you
Holding back so many thoughts I could share
So many thoughts I can\'t share
Because we\'ve drifted beyond our bounds
I always closed you off somehow

We still talk enough to know
We\'re still alike in a lot of the same ways
But not often enough to go back to how we were
I know this confession is long and melodramatic
I always was more than I could handle
But you\'ll always be here as a weakness.

That one person I always wanted
The one that I could never have
The one that made me feel unworthy
The one that kept me coming back

It\'s impossible to feel
How I feel right now, lost and unused
The anonymous fangirl who you wooed with
Words of friendship and trust
Well here is my last undying manifesto to you
So soak it up inbetween the lines
Where I so willingly died for you.